“Unless you love someone, nothing else makes any sense.”

I take everything too seriously.

I am overdramatic.

I care too much about what other people think.

I am incredibly condescending to people because it makes me feel better about myself.

I am a good person.

I care.

I am controlling.

I don't take care of myself.

I am spineless.

I have no self respect.

I am dependent.

I am never content.

"voices to voices,lip to lip

i swear(to noone everyone)constitutes

undying;or whatever this and that petal confutes...

to exist being a peculiar form of sleep

what's beyond logic happens beneath will;

nor can these moments be translated:i say

that even after April

by God there is no excuse for May

-bring forth your flowers and machinery:sculpture and prose

flowers guess and miss

machinery is the more accurate, yes

it delivers the goods,Heaven knows

(yet are we mindful,though not as yet awake,

of ourselves which shout and cling,being

for a little while and which easily break

in spite of the best overseeing)

i mean that the blond abscence of any program

except last and always and first to live

makes unimportant what i and you believe;

not for philosophy does this rose give a damn...

bring on your fireworks,which are a mixed

splendor of piston and of pistil;very well

provided an instant may be fixed

so that it will not rub,like any other pastel.

(While you and i have lips and voices which

are for kissing and to sing with

who cares if some oneyed son for a bitch

invents an instrument to measure Spring with?

each dream nascitur,is not made...)

why then to Hell with that:the other;this,

since the thing perhaps is

to eat flower and not to be afraid."

-E.E. Cummings

Everything is all in place now. The realizations. They have all occurred.

"You're planning something aren't you, you're planning something aren't you? You stupid little girl"

I will need to talk to someone paid enough money to tell me that nothing is my fault and that it will be taken care of. They will hand me a bottle of pretty colors to ingest and ensure nary a bad thought enters my head.

"You haven't met anyone that loves you yet"

I don't know if I love me yet. I'm trying to love me. But I don't think I want to for some reason.

"I sat down.." "And then I realized..." "It was then I figured out..."

Working out, smoking, working on school, being around positive people, being away from negative people.

"You look like a tranny, like a drag queen, why are you everyone's gay best friend?"

Wear what I want to wear and act how I want to act instead of picking out 'Shoulds'

"you're addicted to sleeping pills"

Yes. Yes I am. Sleep is a punishment that I do not deserve.

I WANT TO STOP THROWING UP EVERYTIME I EAT SOMETHING.

"This is what I mean! You should fast all day and then before bed have some soup. That's all you need"

“To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.”

“We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit.”