Never have I ever....bought this many clothes for myself. In my life.
It feels amazing to be able to have a whole bunch of outfits.
I mean, I wore a uniform to school for 13 years straight so all I have is T-shirts from school events and maybe three- four outfits total for weekend.
Now I finally have things to wear WITH my jewelry instead of my jewelry being the whole point of my clothes.
Sidra told me to buy a whole bunch of outfits and then just to refresh my wardrobe every month by buying two or three pieces. I think I will do my shopping for that in Northpark- a monthly pilgrimage if you will.
I'm sort of obsessed with a lot of things. Which is odd. I have only truly given my mind, body and soul to three things in my life: Harry Potter, My Chemical Romance, and fashion. I never want to have that commitment with anything else. It was a spectacular relationship though. Pure devotion to each thing: looking up pictures, keeping current with related topics, being an expert on whatever it was. I breathed, blinked, ate, and drank those three. I still do but not as prominently.
However now I find my interests a bit scattered but I suppose this is what they mean by "unique" personality. Many things make it up but none of them define me.
Right now my obsessions:
Sinology- specifically Emperor Qin's Terra cotta warriors in Xi'an. Ramadan/Islamic history. Grunge style. Korean boys- They're so sexy, especially the boys from the Boys over Flowers TV show. Tokyo city and Japanese city life. Graffiti art- and anything Fafi related. The Romanov Dynasty in Russia and their patronage. My Marc by Marc Jacobs guitar watch which I've been wearing non-stop for the past two weeks with my Guess message bangles (they're turning my wrists green). Bellatrix Lestrange- her as a person, her style, her life, and, yes, Helena Bonham Carter as her.
I lost all my Imogen Heap and Feist songs when my dad switched the modems. I have to get them back. All I've been listening to is dance lately.
Not healthy.
I'm feeling a lot healthier. I just feel so down at random moments. Mainly when I'm out at night.
I think I'm going to be a real night owl. There's just something about the dark that makes everything a hell of a lot more fascinating.
By the way- I put away my diary. I'm using this.
The amount of shopping and things I'm getting would make you think I'm moving to a different state instead of just twenty minutes away. My parents
think I'll be visiting every weekend, but I'll come home every other weekend for laundry and that is all. I really need to be independent for once.
Things I hope to have done by October: CONCERT. JOB. FROGAIDES. SIX FLAGS. HAUNTED HOUSE. PARTY. DALLAS. HOOKAH.
And I'm hoping that in Spring, I will have enough balls to attempt a trip to Austin for a music festival with some friends.
I had better get some new friends that I actually have something in common with.
I love meeting people and making friends who I have nothing in common with but I really do want to meet some people who enjoy the same things I do.
It's going to be hard but I'll find them.
IN addition to the Gay-Straight Alliance, Muslim Student Association, (hopefully) FrogAides, (hopefully) Image magazine, I want to join the Anime Club
and some random clubs too. Just for fun. I want to know a lot of people!
I WANT TO HAVE FUN AND BE IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE.
I like listening to Van She. A lot. I'm just going to buy the album. They're sound like Van Halen interpreted by The Living Things.
All right I'm going to bed.
I hope I get that Sephora job, and all my wishes are fulfilled. I also want to go and check out some photography and art books to look at.
AND I CAN'T FIND MY GOLDFRAPP CD!
Fuck.
Oh and I swear too much apparently according to everyone.
Fuck 'em.
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